Winter Blues

Well, I've got a case of the winter blues. You know when you are sooo ready for summer and sunshine and it just seems like so long until you'll see it? That's where I'm at right now.
I think that working nights doesn't help either. Its dark when I go into work, still kinda' dark when I get off and then dark again when I wake up. It feels like I'm in a dark, cold world that won't end for a couple of months yet. Maybe I'm just in a rut. I stay up all night, because that is what I'm used to doing. Then, I go to bed somewhere between 5am and 7am and sleep 'til between 12pm and 2pm. That's on my nights off. I may as well be working!! It seems like I spend so much of my free time recovering from working that I'm tired all the time.
We had 2 deaths the other night at work. One right after the other. There is sadness all around it seems. Its hard emotionally and physically to do what I do. And yet, I do like it. I have worked very hard to get to where I am. I'm good at what I do - and there are rewarding times in my job. Its awesome to run into someone in the store or at the mall that only a short while before had been broken and battered and lying a a coma. Its awesome to get a card sent to the unit saying how much they appreciate all we have done for them. There are some great things being done in that unit and I work with the best nurses around :) But it does have a way of making me feel drained of energy and longing to flee to the beach and lay in the sun and do NOTHING!! :)
Well, tonight I got up at 3pm and then finally made it out of the house by 6 and got a big load of firewood and then went to Chipotle for a nice big meal to go. I brought it home and built a fire and watched TV while eating my Fajita Burrito Bol and munched on chips until I stuffed! Its now almost midnight and I'm just really waking up. I think I should call my friends and see who wants to go shopping or do something fun, but I'm stuck in that night shift rut! Although I'm wide awake, no one else is!! Ughhh!!
Thanks for letting me rant - and if you don't like it - well, don't read it!! :)